another sleepless night

wow... i do not understand why i can't sleep at night. sometimes i wonder if i was meant to live on the other side of the world where my night would be day. hmmmmm... nope. i'd probably find a way to switch my schedule around & stay up till ungodly hours of the night. there IS something about being awake this late (4:15am) though... so quiet & peaceful. my mind just comes to life. sometimes the day is so filled with stuff that i don't even think. i just shift into auto-pilot. which can be a good thing, and a bad thing. i was hanging out with manda earlier & i asked her what was on her mind. after she got done explaining, she asked me the same thing. and i realized at that moment that absolutely NOTHING was on my mind. again... not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. it felt kind of strange though... like, "am i dumb or something? i'm not even thinking right now. i'm just... here." but on the other hand i was able to really be present in that moment... i didn't have a billion things running through my mind. no....

i save that for the wee hours of the night :)

well here we go... my late night blurt session where i blurt out all the things that are on my mind!

common purse

yeah... so my roomies and i are starting a common purse. we are going to have one bank account between the 5 of us. we went to the bank today & started the process in motion... so crazy. i'm really excited though! this is such a huge step for us... in trust, discipline, sharing & love! DANG! this is going to change everything... i think this is the reason i originally moved into the hamline house. i was thinking about how i've always been taken care of and how i've always had more than enough. yet, there are people in the world who have nowhere near enough. for me, something was terribly wrong with this picture. and i had a hope that moving in with a bunch of other folks that were trying to learn more about what it means to follow jesus & to love people would help. well... here we are almost 2 years later and we're just now doing something about that. i mean, we've made some pretty significant changes to how we spend our time and money... but nothing like this. the people i live with are becoming my new family in every way. nobody will have too much and nobody will have too little. it's a beautiful thing :)

reba place

we have some folks visiting us this weekend from reba place, a community in chicago that's been around for 50+ years. this is super exciting too! natalie has totally done all the work of arranging this & making it possible and i don't think i've fully appreciated it until today. these folks are coming to have conversations with everyone from thirdway to help grow into the beautiful community that god wants us to be. they are going to help us see into the health of our community & give us advice & encouragement and they have the wisdom & experience to back it up. i have a feeling that this is going to be a huge blessing for us.

manda

oh come on... i know you're all just dying to hear more juicy details about the new lady in my life! haha... well again, i don't wanna just rant on & on about how much i like her (A LOT) and how beautiful she is (VERY) and how great things are going (AMAZING)... but hey what the heck! i like her a whole lot, she is smokin' hot (a healthy catch), and i couldn't be more happy. honestly. i couldn't. we fit together. it's corny to say, but all things corny are coming to mind and it's true!

we had out first kiss.

it was so special, and scary, and perfect.

the way a first kiss should be.

this one's a keeper folks.

sleep

it's time for me to sleep. sooooooooo late.

i love you blog fam!

night!